strawberry-trellis answered:
I like this a lot, thank you.
I’m worried I’ll get too personal answering this, but it’s like a child having a temper tantrum. I worked with kids over the winter and this one time one of the kids was drawing pictures in the steam on the windows and he messed up his picture. He got really angry and erased the whole thing and then he started to cry because he missed it. He didn’t mean to erase it he was just angry. It’s something like that. Being older, you have access to more destructive things and being destructive means more than erasing a picture on a window.
It’s like a tightrope walk. Never being fully over childhood intensity and trying to handle adulthood-being able to handle things that can hurt you and can hurt other people.